ugh is how I totally feel right now. We went to Woody's for dinner and I had a lemon drop shot with our friend Wayne. Well, I think the bartender was a total alkie because that shiznit was stroooong. But I only had one shot so I'm just super tired. I was tired before because I was trying to leave work by 6 but I didn't get out until 7:30pm I had to count both drawers by myself because everyone else was busy. I also had the worst customers come in to the store today, everybody wants something for free and I'm sorry but I cannot always give them what they want. Why do people expect just to get handed stuff, I am not Santa Clause. I wish there really was a Santa because that would just be awesome and all the kids all over the world would get gifts which is what I so wish could happen. I can't wait until this Christmas, Ethan will actually be able to open presents instead of just being a lump like he was last Christmas and there's the pic of my lumpy baby. Such a sweet booga-bit.

So yea but this year he is going to be opening presents and getting into everything. I can't wait!! Christmas is my favorite time of the year and if I could leave my tree up all year I soooo would. Also, I love Christmas music, I would listen to that all year and sometimes if I'm feeling down I will put in my David Phelps Christmas CD and listen to "Mary Did You Know!" and it cheers me right up. Today is one of those days that I was just soooo tired but all day I thought about God and the amazing things that he does and I just had to leave work for lunch and sit in my car and just pray. Pray about everything and anything and everyone. I just want God to surround me everywhere and I feel like he does but there are some times when I wonder if people can see that reflected in me and how could I make them see. How can I show them that God is wonderful and amazing and they need him just like I need him. How do I tell them that He did all this amazing stuff for them and they don't even know. How do I do that without people getting offended or thinking that I'm just another crazy Christian. But, why should I care what they think I am a crazy Christian, I am crazy about God and his son Jesus. He has done so much in my life. I am rambling and I know but sometimes I just really like to get this stuff out. I want to touch someone's life with God. I'm going to end this here and go to bed because I have to get up in the morning and go to work. Another long day awaits until I get to come home and see my son.
Amen.