My grandmother died yesterday and while it's hard to believe that I will never talk to her on this earth again, it was better for her to pass on and go to heaven to be with my Papa.

That is not the reason, however, for my question, why? My question why is why can't my dad ever make things easy and just help us out when we need it. Why does he have to build our hopes up just to call later on and send them crashing down to the ground? We made a lot of plans today to rent a car and drive to Arkansas for the graveside funeral. We decided that we would leave Wednesday night, drive to Atlanta, spend the night there and then drive the rest of the way on Thursday. We would go to the funeral on Friday and head home Friday night or Saturday morning. My brother comes over to my house not 10 minutes ago and tells me that my dad found out that 21 and under can't drive the rental car so my step mom would have to drive the whole way by herself or I could drive some and just not tell the rental company that was what we were going to do. Apparently that's not what they wanted to hear so now my dad is going to pay for my step mom and little brother to fly to Arkansas but me and my other brother are left to sit here at home and do nothing, but wishing we were able to go and pay respects to our grandmother. I don't understand why he always has to do this to us. He doesn't do stuff like this to my little brother who he had with my step mom, just to me and my brother from my mom. I feel like he loves my half-brother more than he loves me and my real brother. I hate to say it like that because we've always kind of just been brothers and sisters and not half this or whole that but that's what it seems like happens every freakin time.

Rant over...